I’m Jen. I’m a 30 year old mother to a wonderful little man named Ethan. He is my greatest accomplishment. I thank God for him every day. I’m a registered nurse and I am still looking to find my place in this world.

I suffered two years of physical, sexual, and emotional abuse at the hands of my first husband. I married young, I was almost 19 years old. We met when I was only 16. After the divorce I never sought emotional counseling for the trauma I had been through and it took me almost 10 years to finally do it. I am now actively seeking medical treatment with both a therapist and a psychiatrist for Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and Major (Recurrent) Depressive Disorder. I suffer anxiety/panic attacks, nightmares, trust issues, anger outbursts, emotional instability, and many other problems. I have watched my past unravel all of my relationships at some point or another ever since my marriage ended. When I was approximately 4-5 years old I was sexually molested by a male babysitter as well. I never knew how much the past could affect your present until I sat down and truly looked at my life and my decisions throughout it.

I have a passion for fitness and health.. though I have fallen off that track this past year. I suffered a pretty severe back injury which has been dibilitating to my life thus-far. I am in treatment and currently trying to get better and find answers to my pain.

I am currently a Nurse Manager at a nursing home in my area. I enjoy my job and I am happy with the path I am taking.

I am hoping to find other women (or men) who have been through similar difficulties and can find some comfort in hearing my stories, my advice, my everyday dealings. I remember the first time I heard someone tell me that what I was feeling was “completely normal” and the sigh of relief I had.. I was brought to tears by that statement. I think everyone needs to know they are not alone in their struggles and if somehow I can help you feel that way then I look forward to being of assistance.

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Jennifer

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